Regret in Hindsight's Light

 

To the one who loved me through my darkest tide,

Despite the pain I drowned in, 

you stayed beside.

I know what I did, by losing you I see,

You were too good for me, 

and for that, 

I'm sorry to be.

Betrayed, hurt, with baggage 

I could not hide,

I dumped it all on you, 

yet you didn't sigh.

That weight I gave you led to guilt's heavy chain,

I fucked up, 

blind to how you felt the pain.

In youth's fragile years, 

I walked through shadows deep,

Past wounds taught me to see people in a twisted sleep.

I viewed love through lenses clouded by past fears,

And in my naivety, 

I misjudged all the years.

I broke you, thinking I'd spare you more pain,

A choice I made, 

in my own tangled shame.

I see now I was wrong, 

blinded by my own strife,

In trying to shield you, 

I lost the gift of your life.

Though maybe I didn't love you in the way you desired,

The respect I hold for you is vast, 

come what may.

You loved me the most, 

with a heart so pure and true,

And I know I failed you, 

and for that, my heart is blue.

I regret the choices made in my youthful plight,

Choices born of wounds, 

of seeing love in a dim light.

I was naive, and in my fear, 

I pushed you away,

Now in hindsight's clarity, 

I see the love you would stay.

You loved me through my storms, through pain and through my night,

And I, in my confusion, 

let that love drift out of sight.

I'm sorry for that hurt, 

for the love that derailed,

I wish you well in all of life's pursuits, may your path be unveiled.