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Damage

Why does it happen that when you love someone with all your heart that love pierces your heart with thousands of memories of broken trust?

 That you no longer love anyone
Why does it happen that when you've longed for a moment for years, waited for it so long ..... 

It comes when you no longer want it .
Why does waiting look much easier?
Why does the pain of betrayal always seem small against love......
No matter how much we try to hate the person. 
We always end up loving them more
In just a moment all lies look small , 
No matter how much pain they gave us before. 
The only thing we want to hide in memories is the trace of fake love !!! 
Why??
Why does it happen?
Why does it feel so heavy to utter a single word, when you are battling a storm inside
Why doesn't it feel right to cry, when you want to cry your heart out!!
Why do you want to hold it inside  and throw it out of your body at the same time.
Why do you still carry it around, when it is to heavy to carry. 
Why does it happen?
When you're breathing but it doesn't feel like you're alive anymore !!! 
Fear of losing that becomes much powerful than the betrayal. You are that much afraid of losing that you hold upon the pain, why??
What sort of intoxication is it?
Am dying but don't care anymore
I'm caged but all I see is him
Why does it happen ?
When you have thousands of questions is your head, but you don't want answers to any of them.
You just want to trust, maybe you want to think it was  your fault,  maybe that person was always right.
The one who gave you all those traces of bleeding memories, those hallucinations
Who made your eyes bleed in the middle of the night.
Why does it happen?
When you don't want to talk about that person but end up pouring your heart out for them
Does it have any cure?  Or is it just meaningless - Everything
Hands feel numb, stomach feels empty, the heart feels heavy and the chest heavier
Sinking deep down in it, whatever it is ! ! Feels like heart has become a scattered universe .
Consisting stories of damage and damage....




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