My Diary

I'm lost in the labyrinth of your absense,  A prisoner of love , in perpetual resistance . Every fiber of my being screams to let go, Yet, I'm bound to the memories,  the whispers, the glow.  The war within me rages,  a never-ending fight,  Between the heart that holds on and the soul that's tired of the fight.  I'm torn between the comfort of your presence and the agony of your distance,  A constant tug-of-war,  a heartbreaking existence.  Your love is a double-edged sword ,  it cuts so deep,  A bittersweet reminder of what I'll never keep.  I'm trapped in this limbo ,  where love and pain entwine,  A never-ending cycle,  a heart that's forever aligned.  If I let go, I'll lose the essence of you,  The memories, the laughter, the tears,  the truth.  I'll move on, but the feelings will fade,  Leaving behind a hollow space,  an emptiness that's never staid.  And if you come back,...

I cling to you like a lifeline worn, Every fiber strained, my heart forlorn. The tighter I grip, the more I bleed, The pain is suffocating, my soul freed. With every breath, I feel myself slip, Into the abyss of love, where I lose my grip. I'm torn apart, yet held together by threads, Of memories, of moments, of the love we've said. My palms are raw, my heart aches too, But still I hold on, for love shines through. In this desperate dance, I'm lost and found, My identity blurred, my love profound.   The rope cuts deep, my soul on fire, I'm consumed by love, my heart's greatest desire. I'd bear the pain, the anguish, the strife, For just one moment, one glance, one touch of life. Is this the price of loving you so true? To lose myself, to fall apart for you? I'll take the risk, I'll bear the pain, For love's sweet agony, I'll remain.

Detachment was  by far the scariest thing about me, Until I met you, and it became the scariest thing for me. I wore armor, impenetrable and cold, Detached from hearts, stories untold. No flinch, no sigh, no second glance, Easy to let go, no lingering dance. Then you walked in, and walls came down, The fortress cracked, my heart renowned. The harder I held, the more I'd bleed, The pain was exquisite, a love so freed. But now I'm shattered, pieces on the floor, Every shard a scream, every breath a chore. You dismantled me, piece by piece, Leaving me hollow, a fragile release. You pushed me to the limit, took me for granted too, A reckoning's coming, and I'll break through. I'll see you in a different light, When I'll lock you out, and end the fight. You'll know the wrath of my indifference cold, When I'm done healing, and my heart's grown old. You'll see the ruin you've made of me, And wish you'd never tested my liberty. And yet, in this d...