My Diary

 We're no longer tolerating your lousy behavior. You thrive on chaos, divisiveness, and fear. You seem to derive great pleasure from causing pain to others and enabling prolonged uncertainty.  It's Over  Every time it seemed things returned to some sense of 'normalcy' (whatever that means-you messed that up, too) you threw some other wacky things our way. Devastating wildfires in Australia and the west coast. A global pandemic whose coronavirus affected over 75M people (including the U.S. president)and killed more than 1.7M worldwide. Record unemployment numbers. A stock market crash Never-ending extreme weather events. Growing social injustice and civil unrest. (Oh, and "murder hornets"- what was that about?)      You forced isolation, took away freedoms we didn't realize we had or how we'd miss, stole loved ones from us, and pushed us to the brink. You disrupted the way we work, live, and learn, at times removing the possibility of in-person anything...

Why does it happen that when you love someone with all your heart that love pierces your heart with thousands of memories of broken trust?  That you no longer love anyone Why does it happen that when you've longed for a moment for years, waited for it so long .....  It comes when you no longer want it . Why does waiting look much easier? Why does the pain of betrayal always seem small against love...... No matter how much we try to hate the person.  We always end up loving them more In just a moment all lies look small ,  No matter how much pain they gave us before.  The only thing we want to hide in memories is the trace of fake love !!!  Why?? Why does it happen? Why does it feel so heavy to utter a single word, when you are battling a storm inside Why doesn't it feel right to cry, when you want to cry your heart out!! Why do you want to hold it inside  and throw it out of your body at the same time. Why do you still carry it around, wh...

After years of controversy among researchers, the results determined that persistent depression causes brain damage, and not the other way around. So, first of all whosoever is going through depression, anxiety or panic attacks. Stand up go straightaway to the person whom you trust the most and give them a cwtch , cause our society is full of snollygoster , malicious minds their schadenfreude . One need to understand that there is a difference between the symptoms of teen and an adult, depression can occur at any time in life. Issues such as peer pressure, academic expectations, changing bodies, criticism and many more, they can bring a lot of ups and downs for teens but for some teens, the lows are more than just temporary feelings . Teen depression signs and symptoms include a change from the teenager's previous attitude and behaviour that can cause significant distress and problems at school or home, in social activities, or in other areas of life. Depression symptoms ca...

Love me or Hate me.  I don't care and I really don't, it took me a long way time to reach the point of being completely unaffected by someone else's opinion about me. It is my hard work, so no one can take that away from me, that soul work I did and I'm still doing; Its mine, I own it. It belongs to me, I belong to me and only me. No one has the power to touch it to take it, or even look into the way I have rebuilt myself after free falling for so long. I am as free as I have ever been. Powerful, brave, graceful and strong; I did that and its beautiful. No one has the power to turn it ugly. I still have a long way to go, and I am going I know and that counts for something. It's been easy and I had to learn not to expect it to be. I have been mindful about picking up my pieces along the way, taking a close look at each one before I decide or talk it or leave it and I have left a lot. The pieces of me worth keeping are far from perfect, some re still cracked, some are...

I can’t say “thank you” enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life. You have made such a huge impact on my life. I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself. You have taught me that you don’t always have to be strong. You are allowed to break down as long as you pick yourself back up and keep moving forward. I know that you don’t believe in things happening for a reason so I can believe for the both of us that you were brought into my life for a reason. You have taught me that I have a story and that my story matters. More so, you have taught me that other people need my story. Through honesty and vulnerability, I can open doors that would otherwise stay closed. It wasn’t until I started to get honest and vulnerable with myself that I could get honest and vulnerable with other people. You have taught me that despite my flaws and hurts, my story is still valid and ...

"I AM A GIRL" RAPE IS A RAPE, and the idea that we should be parsing and qualifing and slicing what types of rape we're talking about doesn't make sense - BARACK OBAMA   मछ्ली  जल  की   रानी  है  जीवन  उसका  पानी  है   हाथ  लगाओ  गे   तो  डर  जाएगी  बाहर  निकालोगे  तो  मर   जाएगी  किसको  पता  था  की  ये  पंक्तियाँ   आगे, हमारी  बेटियों के  ऊपर  ही  लागू  होंगी  "STOP" means "NO" "TURNING AWAY" means "NO" "I DON'T WANT TO" means "NO" "SHOVING YOU AWAY" means "NO" "LEAVE ME ALONE" means "NO" "PASSED OUT" means "NO" "I'M NOT READY" means "NO" "PUSHING YOU AWAY" means "NO" "I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT" means "NO" "GET AWAY FROM ME" means "NO" "SCREAMING" means "NO" "NO MEANS NO" Guys...

"YOU'RE NOT STUCK" You all know what we're just committed to a certain pattern of behaviour just because they helped you in the past, it does not mean they are going to help in the future too. Now those behaviours have become more harmful than helpful. The reason why we can't move forward is that we keep applying old formulae to a new level in your life. Changes can be beautiful and scary at the same time. You can be getting hurt and wondering what tomorrow will bring but you do can also be happy and healing. "It's ok to begin your story today. Those mistakes which you've made along the way are lessons, not failures. We're meant to get back up and find a way that resonates with you. There is no expiration date of updating yourself."

"GOALS" Goals that may elude us  That now seems out of reach Are little more than a moment  With a lesson there to teach  Perhaps a new direction Or maybe simply waiting Will you have time to try on ??? Even when the sun is fading  It is there a reason  This challenge that you face  It has a purpose And not just a rainbow you might chase. Pull yourself together  And wipe the tears you've cried You have the strength within you  So continue trying. "A POEM WHICH SAYS IT ALL"

"TRUE LOVE IS PRICELESS" I don't get peace even for a single moment without you. I don't know why my heart feels perplexed without you. Just for your sake, I can remain awake for countless nights even after the numerous fights. Whenever you go my heart follows you. I have no control over my feelings my heart now, it's you and only you isn't this feeling 'wow'. When you get upset my heart breaks. I will happily reach my destination if you'll walk on this road along with me. Never go anywhere and especially away from the gaze of my eyes. My heart is unable to attach itself with anyone else now. May everyone leaves, my only request is you don't ............

SELF LOVE Regardless of the bitterness, despite the hatred the day has come we always had waited. You are safe from the "DEVIL". Take a sigh of relief nevertheless of things, which must have been hard to believe.  Life is complicated, somethings can't be explained, only I am here to take all the blame. May you get someone, one of a kind. Indeed true, real and hard to find, whatever almighty does is a blessing in disguise, darkness will surrender. The brightness of sun surely gonna shine.  You are an angel, your actions prove the same. Be the way you are, you need no fame.

"Broken Angel"   We all are broken in one form or the other, I forgive you. Not for you but for me myself because like chains shackling me to the past I will no longer pollute my heart with bitterness, fear, distrust that you've caused throughout the years. I forgive you cause hating you was another way of holding on, and you don't belong here anymore.